S slipped through the boundary barrier last night, and spoke to T on the phone. According to S, Bill is fine, and wants to see us for our sessions this Saturday, if he can get out of hospital.
IT might eventuate, but why am I still angry towards him? I feel like a little kid that’s pouting for the wrong done to me since he 'left.' Do I trust he will not leave me again? The second thing I will talk about is an alternative Bill in case he does. S feels the same way.
We could rock up at Bills therapist and introduce ourselves I suppose, but he has to be willing enough to take us in. When it comes to feeling safe, I don’t care who I see as long as they have a basic understanding of Total Therapy.
And why do I 'see' Bill as broken now? The last time I saw him he was a patient, and a very sick one at that. Strokes tend to reoccur. Will I always wonder if he is about to have another one? And if he does, will help be there for him?
S and me have joked about just needing Bills body propped up in a chair to continue on with therapy. We could get him stuffed, and connect a little toggle thing that sounded an occasional, 'm' and whalla! Failing that, we could stick up a pic of him on the wall and play a 'm' recording. Yeah, we are both sick and know it.
under it to wake things up.