I have had a very difficult week. I am in so much emotional pain and I can't seem to get it to shut off.

I keep telling myself if I can make it through this process of therapy, I can get myself back and will not walk away from my family.

I have come to a place of acceptance recently. That this is really happening, that I have no control over what happened. I can only continue in therapy and trust this will work out.

I have come to an understanding, within myself, if I can trust the Therapist and work with him, I can get back to trusting who needs trusting in my life and make my life work.

Am I placing too much of an emphasis on Therapy and the relationship with the Therapist to make my life get to where it needs to be?

I have struggled a long time with trusting him and I strongly feel that if I can stick it out, and truly trust, I can get my life back on track.

I feel if I quit therapy, I will quit on marriage and family. I will just walk away. I am barely hanging on by a thread.

I have stopped using so much energy in denying what has happened or is happening and have realized I am not in control. I can only do what I can humanly do.

I am fighting for my life.

T.