Now that I am able to identify it and realize that it happens I am also trying to pinpoint when it's about to happen. It seems that when I feel threatened or the situation starts to feel unsafe or dangerous, then I "leave" the room. My left brain disengages and goes off line and I'm left with feelings and no way to express them. This happened most recently on Monday with my T. When it seemed to me that we had a major disconnect in session I started to feel that floaty, spacey feeling and could not focus on what he was saying beyond knowing that I did not want to hear it. I left him feeling lost and scared wondering if the relationship was doomed because we were not connecting for the second session in a row.
I ended up sending an email to my T last night and he wrote back and arranged to call me today to discuss how I felt. He had asked me previously if I know when I'm starting to dissociate and I said most times yes but I cannot tell him at the moment... I seem to be unable to communicate the feeling to anyone while it's happening. And so a friend of mine suggested we have some type of physical signal so that he would be alerted to what was going on. He told me he was thinking the same thing and we will discuss it further at our next session. He also apologized for not checking in with me during the session. Sometimes when he's being really alert he can catch me doing that before I am even aware of it myself and he will bring me back.
I was just wondering if anyone had any experience to share in relation to this topic and how they handle it with their T.
Thanks,
TN