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and if they do, how and what does it even mean?? do they care the same way i 'care' about the homeless for example - i only 'care' once in a while when i'm forced to, or i only care because i feel guilty in a way, and then i go on my way to my nice cosy home and dont ever give them a second thought...
my T has recently brought up the 'c' word, and she said 'care' at first, but then seemed to correct herself with 'concerned'. and also, it was her typical 'you don't believe that i MIGHT BE concerned for you'... might be ...might not be... what the hell is she saying anyway?
anyway, even this very vague 'declaration' has sent me into a complete crazy tailspin........ and i just CAN NOT bring myself to believe even this mild possibility of her 'concern' for me..... i feel like i'm going to be sick just thinking about it, and there is something in me that just WONT ALLOW me to believe (even though the little one is kicking and screaming in the dark), it just seems soooo against my very survival or something that i just CAN'T.
also, i thought the idea was that i am supposed to grieve that no-one cared about me... i dont know what she is trying to do.. apart from messing with my head (and heart)!!
i hope i'm not opening up a big can of worms here... i know its such a hard subject for everyone...
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