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I frequently have dreams about T. We have had a long relationship and I am feeling very close to him right now and it is scaring me. The stretch of time I was not seeing him, I still dreamed of him. Some dreams are good, bad, scary and most are anxiety dreams; he won't see me anymore, not in the office, does not care, I'm in the waiting room and he does not notice me, etc. Sometimes he is a women, a younger man and himself or other women are in my session with us. I dream of his wife. Last night I dreamed I was with them at their home and it felt good....connected. Just wondering if it happens to anyone here.
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I used to dream of oldT much more than I do of this T. Not sure why. Some of the themes are familiar like I was there and he couldn't see me or he would cancel the session or that I was looking at him having fun with other people and I was on the other side of a glass and he couldn't see me.

My only vivid dream of current T happened a few years ago. We were dancing together to a waltz dressed in formal clothes. He had on a Tux and I was in a gown. We were dancing around a large ballroom of some kind and I could feel my gown swishing around my legs. I loved the feeling of closeness and enjoyment from that dream and I still feel it vividly.

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I've had lots of dreams about my T over the past 3.5 years, but I don't have them very frequently. They are almost always either anxiety-related ones or at best neutral. I have had a couple notable good dreams that really reassured me I was on the right path working with him. My bad dreams have ranged from finding out he had taken advantage of me in a dissociated state, to him blaming me for something that went wrong in a session we were having in the dream, to others trying to commit me and not being able to get a hold of him for help, to not being able to get to my session or contact him in an emergency. I haven't had a truly awful dream about T or therapy in a long time, but I've had some tough ones as recently as a few weeks back. I usually report them to him vaguely, that I'm having nightmares about sessions, but I almost never share details with him, especially since I stopped journaling about therapy.
I've only had one dream about my T but it was vivid and I still very much remember it.

I was at the store when a bad storm came through and it created a tornado which did damage. I ran from the store when it passed and I somehow knew where my T lived. I went to his house and saw it had taken damage.
He opened the door when I ran up and he was NOT happy to see me. I tried to help and asked if he was OK but he was obviously furious. I tried to talk to his wife and she was nice and let me pick up a few things. As I left he told me he didn't want me to come to his house ever. I argued saying I was trying to help and make sure he was OK.

I think because at the time I was dealing with the onset of my Transference feelings, I was struggling with boundaries and maybe I thought that under the right circumstances (Like an emergency) I could cross them and see him outside of the office.
I periodically dream about my T. Most of the dreams revolve around my T walking past me without seeing me or just bypassing my therapy hour altogether. Just recently I did have a dream where she actually hugged me. I have been with her for forever off and on, and she has never hugged me in real life. I wish she would though. It was a much better dream than the usual not seeing me.
Yes and they're usually not good. Had one last week that was a nightmare. My dreams are always very vivid and 'real' - to the point that if in my dream I break my leg, the pain wakes me up - I'll wake clutching my leg.

My nightmare: was going to see her - a different office to where we normally meet. She was upstairs I was down. A man started going crazy, lighting fires at all the exits to kill everyone. Once we were all trapped, he started shooting and killing people. I just wanted to get upstairs to find my T. Somehow I made it up there but he had lit a fire outside every single doorway, trapping everyone in their offices.

Then it's the next day / few days later. Somehow my T and I survived. I went to see her for an app, only she wasn't there. Another T was going to see me, she said my T wasn't going to see me anymore, but gave no explanation. I freaked out, then tried to escape - the psych team (whoever they were) were coming after me, wanting to sedate me with meds to knock me out, and place me under the mental health act. I ran and jumped off the top of the building to escape them.

So yeah - not a nice dream. I did email her about it, which helped. Guess it's what I fear subconsciously.
I've had two, both of which I've written about here. One was really positive but had me feeling really freaked out after it - probably because I felt a deep sense of connection in the dream and then shortly after (that was before the shame and fear chorus jumped all over me) and for me care feels threatening. The other, less so... and involved me seeing T in a real life setting, her not behaving in a way I expected (not towards me but a member of her own family) and me rejecting her.

I wrote about both occasions and I probably should share them with her but I'm not quite there in terms of trust and safety yet.

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