Hi Guys,

My T an I occasionally do dream work. He is very happy to talk about them with me anytime I bring one in. Sometimes i find it easier to talk about my dreams then other stuff and although the work is just as rewarding and maybe even more helpful.

So i had this dream, I am looking for ideas about what one specific part means.

I am at a community event, (like a church gathering) and there is a baby being passed around. Someone gives the baby to me and I am holding it. But I know I shouldn't be because it is my therapists Baby. I go to give it back to him and his partner and this partner says that is ok, sometimes it is nice not to be responsible, and i keep the baby. The baby's name was Amelia, which is what i want to name my baby.

What i want to know about is what you think it means that i am holding my therapists baby. But before that i should give you some back ground. My therapist does have a baby i saw them together last summer and that baby was born in late May so it is just under a year old. I desperately want a baby, I am working on becoming a single mom by choice and hope to start the insemination in June. I have been working on this for 18 months now. My therapist and I talk about reproductive stuff all the time as he is gay so they faced some of the shit i face in terms of having babies. In the dream my therapists partner is not his real life partner but instead my known sperm donor.

So ideas about meanings

- I want to have my therapist's baby
- I couldn't hold the baby because of boundary issues, although I was willing to take it but not keep it.
- My therapist and I have become one in my mind, because my baby is his baby
- I want to be more part of my T's life as I want to hold his baby.


Any input is welcome and if people have other ideas about the meaning, please share.