I had a dream about my therapist last night. I just woke up and it's fresh on my mind so I thought I would type it up here now while it still seems real.
I was at the library, about to check out a big stack of books. I approached the counter and there was the librarian-- T!
She smiled affectionately when she saw me, and as I drew nearer told me sympathetically that she had some unfortunate news to tell, sadly. I had accrued a rather large library fine, a hundred dollars, in fact.
I was shocked. I knew some time had passed since my last visit, but I didn't think it was a hundred dollars worth. I told her this, in some distress. I was embarrassed and told her I couldn't imagine how it had happened. She tried to be reassuring about it. She told me that it wasn't that so much time had passed, really, but that I had a
lot of books out, and at a dime a book a day, that could add up quickly.
I briefly tried to mentally calculate this to see just how long it had been or how many books I must have had out, but it wasn't working so I gave up and turned my mind to another problem. My mom and brother were with me and I wanted to pay off the fine before they caught up and found out about it.
I told librarian T that I thought I had enough money with me to cover the fine, and I pulled out my wallet and began counting tens and twenties. To make it easier, I started laying them out on the counter, and when I ran out of these (I still had bills of smaller denominations in my wallet) I noticed that inside my purse I had all these dried seed pods collected from my backyard. I was relieved and thought it would be so much easier to count those and figure out how much money I still needed, rather than to keep counting bills. I am not sure why I thought this, but I started laying out seed pods of various shapes and sizes on the counter along with the tens and twenties, grouping them according to type. When I ran out of pods I glanced at the money again and realized the bills had changed denominations and become all crumpled while I was laying out the seed pods. I had no idea how much money was on the counter anymore. I started counting again and by this time my mother had arrived and started talking to me. At the sound of her voice everything changed denomination again, and moreover I lost the ability to count altogether. My mind just completely froze over. I looked at T apologetically and told her, "I'm afraid I need help counting these," and shoved the whole pile of crumbled bills and seed pods in her direction. She just smiled and began rapidly flipping through and counting them. Expertly, methodically. She also told me she was going to delete my old account so that even if I didn't have enough to pay the fine today, we could open a new account so I could check my books out anyway.
It was around this time I woke up. First feeling was a huge sense of relief that T is in fact my
therapist and not my librarian. I felt it was less embarrassing for her to know all the things she knows about me as my T than it would be for her to know I had a hundred dollar library fine! Second feeling was realization that the fine was just in the dream, too, accompanied by the thought that I probably should check on the due date on the books I have out from the library now, just in case.
Then I became aware that I had lyrics from a song in my head. . . "What makes your eyes so blue? Is it something inside of you? And what makes you beautiful? I wish I knew."
It made me think of T and I smiled.
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Wow, sorry this dream got sooo long winded. If anyone has any interpretive guesses re the meaning of the fine, bills, seed pods, or anything else that would be fun. If not, no biggy.
Would love to see more people posting dreams here, btw! Liese, just wanted to make sure I am correct in thinking this was started as a general dream thread for anyone to post in and not just about the shamrock dream?