a h, is moving away - today. headed off to a ranch, for now, maybe for good. I just found out this morning (it came up as an opportunity and was worked out just a few days ago.) It happens, it's somewhat expected as a possibility for all the Hs sometime. She will be there for now to see if she is a good fit on this ranch. oh, I know the place and it's a beautiful. It could be so good for her - I hope it is. I'm excited she's being "adopted" and maybe moving on to something bigger and better for her...
...and...
I miss her already. Actually, right now, I'm scared to miss her. Terribly.
I'm comforted that my eq. t will still see her every week as they work with her at the ranch and help her get used to ranch life. I feel so good she will be so well cared for. I guess I really trust my t will make sure she's in good hands and that helps me let go.
My session with my t was good, I first got to say "good bye for now" with the h that is leaving, and it was complete, and I worked with another pair of horses after that and spent time with one of the herds. It was hard work, deep, and famillar and good.
Most of my time w Elle in the past has been with or around other h, so it's easy in some way to still be around the others.
Even though I'm actually quite happy for Elle to possibly have found a home... it's still an adjustment, and kinda feels like she's "missing" right now...
damn.
(edited to take out one insigificant personal detail)
), this one h (of quite a few) is gone, and it's the one i was the closest with. you asked a great question! did I get out of it what I wanted with her? i think i did... i'm not sure... oh i miss her! endings suck. i think what i want now is to learn to grieve this "smaller" loss, and learn how to attach to another h... so i can maybe whether these things with people better too... it makes me think a lot about now about using the time well...