Emotional pain to me is the attachment pain I feel with my T. I have said many times it is worse than any physical pain I have ever felt. I am going through it right this second and I don't have words. I cannot deal with it.

Sorry somedays. I hope you feel better.

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There's always some sort of trigger, but it's not always external. Sometimes I'll go through an entire day, feeling horrible after being fine, and then realize that I'd had a triggering dream the night before or something like that. But when I'm suddenly in so much emotional pain for seemingly no reason, that's when it feels the worst. Sometimes it seems easier to bear when you know the cause (but sometimes not!).

Sorry you're in pain, Smiley.

Funny Kashley. I did have some disturbing dreams the night before. I kind of figured it was some sort of flashback but boy I didn't really think it would bother me that much. When I woke up from the dream I was disturbed but not feeling bad. I guess it kind of snuck up on me.

Does anyone know if these flashbacks just keep coming? What's the deal there? I'm not liking the idea that I am going to have flashbacks forever and that they will always make me feel this bad. It's like just waiting for someone to punch you. Just waiting for the next hit - never knowing when it's going to happen.

In my opinion, emotional pain is worse than any other pain. It is impossible to measure, comes from nowhere and hurts the deepest.

From my experience, flashbacks continue on and on until I have deal with what lies at the root of it. Sometimes this has been fairly straightforward, by talking about the memory, it has in turn deal with the fear and with great relief the images have subsided. For other issues it has been much harder and the flashbacks are more stubborn, seemingly relentless at times. The hope that one day they will all cease completely drives me onwards in my therapy.

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