I'm reading a book called "Controlling People" by Patricia Evans right now.
Wow. Just...check it out. This book has helped me realize that I AM NOT the crazy one!!
I expected as much from family, but not from a therapist. I'm still shocked by it, to be honest.
It is surreal is that MANY therapists are controlling. I just talked to a new T and he even told me that the new trend in therapy is to blame the client for the shortcomings of the therapist. For real. My father was unaware and felt the need to control others, but it blows my mind how many unaware therapists are protected by the industry. It makes me sick to my stomach. At least there are a few that understand what is going on.. I think. Suspending disbelief for right now. We shall see.
But at least now I know what happened, and I can start to heal.
Please, please don't blame yourself for the behavior of those who are compelled to control, whether is is family or a therapist or both. It can happen any time intimate information is shared with another person. I realized that I don't have "trust issues", but that I'm VERY smart to take my time in trusting until I know for sure that the other is not a "Controlling Person". A careful screening process and a long trial period is not an unreasonable way to go about creating intimate relationships, provided I even have the energy to weed out all the jerks. (maybe, maybe not) I can't put this book down.
http://www.amazon.com/gp/produ..._details_o00_s00_i00I'll even post excerpts.. doubting your own perceptions, feeling as if no matter how many times you explain yourself you will never be understood.. it doesn't matter, because the controlling person sees you NOT as a separate entity but as an extension of his or herself. Therefore, they feel the need to tell you who you are, what you should feel or think what your motives are. Should one attempt to defend themselves, they will be met with comments such as "You are too sensitive" or "You can't take a joke" or "You always have to have the last word" or "you can't always have what you want" or "Who do YOU think YOU are???" And a therapist can always tell you that you have a personality disorder or that you are manipulating (a projection if I ever heard one!!!) Now I know that MY ex T had a personality disorder!
And BTW.. the abuser is always on his or her best behavior in front of other people. How is it that the world hasn't caught on to the abuser's game??? That is what I would like to know.
Sound familiar?