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it wont matter if I get lost and have to turn around and go back. I am always home with me now, and learning.

WANT!

Muff, that really is beautiful. this is a lesson i'm very slowly learning ... that there is no "right" or "wrong" way. life is a smorgasboard and it's okay to try one item, and maybe it'll agree with you but maybe it won't, and that either way it's okay, so long as you learn from it. my mentality in life has more often than not been about being afraid of choosing incorrectly, to the point of not having any faith in my choices, to the point of NOT making cognitive choices but rather flowing where the tide carries me. and here i am at 51 not knowing exactly how i got here, just knowing that i'm not happy being here where i am. i am fortunate in so many ways and i acknowledge that, but there is something in me that is DYING to be seen and set free. i'm trying to find that "something", and i do believe that if i can learn to allow myself to make choices in confidence and not continually live in fear of whether the choice is "bad" or not, that i will be much closer to living the life i want and being happy with where i am.

thanks for this post.