Hey Everyone
I need to express anger to T about something from my past. Welbutrin could be making me feel more agitated and as I'm ready to express something about attachment this week this old issue from the past that came into my head makes me want to explode. I feel like this T took something off the table once before because so much time had passed. I wonder about myself sometimes and these things popping in my head...I just want the stuff out so maybe I can relax. I want to give this one more session and flat out ask her if she can hear it without saying anything and of course not judging...just let me say it...as muff said in a post "feelings just are" maybe an analyst like xoxo sees really would be better?? Usually I am a pretty calm person but one thing leaads back to something else and there's no rhyme or reason. I know many times some of you have questioned if I'm with the right T and here I go questioning again. Feels like all this stuff should just go back where it came from. Hope you all don't think I'm paranoid but I have been quite confused all the time. I hate feelings.

Hopeful