Just in a place where I am struggling for reasons and in ways I can't quite put my finger on. Nothing that comes out of me seems quite right recently. It feels so impossible to reach out...to my H, my T, my pastor, my friends, you wonderful people here. I'm feeling, both emotionally and sensation-wise, as if I am all tied up or restrained in some way, or like the meaning of what I am experiencing is locked up tight inside me. It is a profound feeling of the impossibility of connection with another human being and I just want to be able to feel like there is some thread, a tender cord, tying me to this human world, rather than binding me in some shadow realm where all I can do is strain to see the far off glimmer of what it means for a soul to touch another soul, however briefly, or for it to find God.

Is this what they call an existential crisis? If so, is there an existential crisis hotline that can help me out of this place?