I've been seeing him a little over a year. He is a really kind and gentle man. Really loves the Lord like I do and wants to help me grow through these stuck places in my life. It feels all consuming when I am stuck in these ruts. Since I am a strong Christian and we have beautiful sessions with the Lord I think he believes I SHOULD be able to handle things in between appts but when the appts get scheduled out more than 10 days apart I panic and believe I can't make it on my own. I do believe he needs to see my angry side as it is a part of me that I'm not excited to share but really need to as it has been an obstacle for me for way too long. Thank you for our insight.

Hi Transition, welcome!!

I'm sorry you're struggling with so much anger right now

I've been where you are talking about with feeling like a burden on your T.

Do you think the burden feeling might be connected to your anger at all? I see two therapists and both of them have said anger is very much followed or proceeded by shame. So I wonder with whatever anger you're processing maybe...somehow the shame bubbles up and then you have to put it somewhere so it goes in to your relationship with your T and causes the projecting? I've done that so that's why I ask.

Did you end up getting the second session scheduled or has your T not responded yet? It sounds like you have a great relationship together.

Welcome again!

Cat

Hi Catalyst

I was finally able to relieve some of my emotional pain last night as I sat with God so the pain is still here yet much more manageable.

I like how you explained the shame tied to the anger- Thank you that helps alot! : )

I haven't heard from my therapist yet as it is the weekend and he has Fridays off so I will have to wait until Monday. I ended up sending him 3 total emails. One with a prayer request, one asking for a second appt and another deep prayer request based on something we are working on. I have an opportunity to confront a person who has hurt me in my life so really need his support and prayer for this. After all this processing I'm begining to know that I have to be able to ask for what I need and not worry about boundaries with my therapist as he should be able to manage them himself and let me know if there is a problem. He is an amazing man. He is old enough to be my son and I sometimes wish I would have not found him for my therapist so that I could work with him as a colleague in his ministry as I am going back to school to become a marriage and family therapist.

Thank you for your response. I'll continue to watch for updates

Blessings & Hugs,