Thanks (((CD))) and (((HIC)))
I can totally hear myself saying something like "I love my city!" or "I love Disney!" or "I love that comforter!" That kind of love, I get - to me it means that I really, really, really like it, that it's a meaningful place or object. I say it freely, actually, when I'm shopping or watching a movie or whatever. It is an easy kind of love, I suppose.
Then there's the opposite end of the spectrum where I've thought romantic love fits - the "in love" I've understood - intimate, attraction, that kind of mushy stuff.
It's the middle ground, where I suppose I'm unclear. That's, in my mind, where I put my dog, I love, love, love him. When I think of him, my heart melts a little
It's also where I think T fits.... I feel very affectionate toward T, I care about T very much, on many levels. None of which are romantic, just to be clear. I am struggling with expressing it, though.
I've never said "I love you" to anyone other family. Even then, I only say that when they say it to me first, then I reply with "I love you too." (partially cause it's habit) I am struggling with this so much right now.... cause T has connected some big, painful dots in my life, and is so patiently, calmly, carefully, and with such care, helping me wade through them. I've always been *fond* of T.... but the more we work together, the more I think that what I feel for T is love. Yet, I don't know what kind of love! I don't know if T knows how I feel. I don't know if it's appropriate for me to tell T how I feel. I don't know. I don't know? Any of you know?!