I am wondering how others have been able to 'let go of' or find peace after having been hurt by doctors, nurses etc in the mental health system.
I'm still angry after all these years and I blame the people who were there to help me. My therapist thinks I had a (big?) part in this picture. I'm so angry still. In many instances in my memory I didn't do anything to deserve bad treatment, it seems like they just read my history and voila, I got talked down to or jerked around in some way.
Some of the most obvious examples of lousy care that I can remember are: A psychiatrist said I was a pain to work with, a nurse said I was 'spoiled', an internist said that people like me are the reason OHIP is in trouble today and because of me someone who was really sick couldn't have a bed in hospital (after which I started having numerous nightmares of OHIP people hunting me down to kill me), and a psychiatrist said that I should go home and repay my debt to society. I was looking for help and in those days had very little insight into what was going on inside of me.
How do you forgive people who are long gone and don't even remember you? Maybe its weird that I am blaming psychiatrists for my pain, but that's where I'm at.
Not dealing with this isn't getting me anywhere.
IHTS