tons, and i dont' even know if i'm being realistic. i've been contained through a rather speedy divorce. it was helpful. self-confident. to consistently let more of my inner-child be part of my outward personality. i keep her pretty locked up. don't want her getting hurt again. less stoic, more trusting of others. less "self-sufficient", learn how to more easily ask for help. to be comfortable with myself and actually like myself. i guess love myself would be good, too. we'll work on like for now. to be more financialy secure so i can stop worrying about my future. stop using booze as an escape. i'm sure there's more. you'll probably be seeing me more in this thread. this is actually a GREAT question as i frequently struggle with "what the hell am i doing here"??? i know i need help, i just often forget why ... i lose sight. thanks for the question, muff.

That I'll be dead, as I can't seem to stop going.

Cute, AG.

I'll have and want a romantic relationship or will know for certain I want to be single not out of pathology. I'll be off medication. I'll have reciprocal relationships. that i will be less afraid of people. I won't allow my PTSD to interrupt my life with the things I need to avoid because of it. I will have more integrated thoughts. I won't hurt myself on purpose. I'll be less perfectionistic and anal retentive. I'll figure out how to relax. I'll know when to say no and not turn back on it.

I will know what I want to do with my life and be prepared to try my best to do it.

Hmm, I don't know. I can't think that far ahead.

Fear less. More joy. Like this guy.

I love this one.

I'd like to feel like this guy(or girl!), too. And then not feel sick afterwards.

Quell

This cutie reminds me of the inner child in all of us, and how one day when healing has been done we can return to that state of joy in our purest form. So, when I am sad I am going to look at Happy Skippy Jumpy face and remind myself that is why I am doing all of this.