Thank you but it feels awful

No.. thanks for support. I hate anger its been an issue lately. He pointed it out... I sank down, didnt have a lot of time to address it so it was near the end. Now all weekend... i freaked I texted him, I called. Afraid hell be made still

(((Ang)))

Being able to express a range of emotions is such a positive thing! I'd bet your T sees it that way and is very far from being mad at you. Heck, they probably get yelled at all the time by their more volatile clients and are hopefully conditioned not to take it too personally. Probably you raising your voice slightly pales in comparison.

((( Ang ))). anger came up briefly in T today. after saying how clients get angry at him, he condescendingly said something like "you'd never get mad at me, though", and he's right. i don't do anger, can't even fathom it at this point. i understand what you're saying. i'm with you. and i know it might not feel like it, but i think you'll be ok ...

Thank you for all your responses. Therapy has been good but so intense. He and I talked through what happened and he tried to reassure me. He showed me how he could be firm and raise his voice without anger and still be there. It helped but it is still terrifying. But it allowed me to go into a deep memory that still affects me.i know there is a long way to go. Thank you for your answers, any shared experiences would be appreciated. Angela