I felt compelled to post after being made aware of a recent issue facing this community with someone who was perhaps not completely honest about their story.

I have posted very little on this board, my first post being a year ago, after being abruptly terminated by my T. I am so appreciative for the board being here, and the empathy I received. Just hearing that other people had similar experiences was key to my being able to move on. Further, I've exchanged PMs with a few of you and that has further enriched me.

I do often wonder how to "pay back" (aside from making a financial contribution to the board's infrastructure) There are some aspects of the therapeutic experience that many on here have had that I have not, and so I often don't feel I have much to offer there. I'm also not able to spend a lot of time perusing these boards. I suspect there may be others in my position.

To that end, I guess I'd put out a question to some of the more seasoned members, and ask them what kind of posts do they think are most helpful to others? I recognize that there are a number of members who share a familiar banter, having been on here for awhile. But I would guess there are also others who read and learn and maybe aren't sure how they can contribute to this forum in a productive and helpful way. And who might not necessarily be able to post frequently.

I hope people don't become jaded as a result of what happened. The board provides a valuable resource.

I've had more experiences with therapists than I'd like to admit, I call it my "rap sheet" and only half in jest. I'm frankly embarrassed by it. I'm currently seeing a psychoanalytically trained therapist several times a week, whereas I had always gone once a week at most. (But hell no, I don't lay down on a couch) My new T is skilled at dealing with transference and provides a calm, kind and caring atmosphere, tangibly different than any other therapy I've had. This seems to bring out the best in me, whereas before I sometimes felt the opposite was true. Going more frequently has also been a huge factor, it has hastened the building of trust.

Some of you who were also terminated shared about your experiences finding a different therapist and how much better it was after a time, and how you look back on it now and feel fortunate that you moved on. I wanted to post this also, to let you know "how the story ended" thanks to your help.

I look back over a year and I like myself better, and I'm doing better than I was. Had I had the same retrospective glasses on with the previous therapist, I might have terminated myself, rather than been terminated. My goal is to eventually not need therapy but I realize it won't happen overnight.

Some aspects of therapy are too personal to envision sharing in this type of public format, but privately is a different story. If anyone reading this would like to exchange PM's on types of therapy or psychoanalysis or being terminated, I'm glad to share what I've experienced and learned.

In the meantime, I wish everyone well in their pursuit of wholeness and want to say another heartfelt thank you for all the sincere people here provided support for me, and who devote their time and energy to helping people who come to this board for support and understanding.