((Muff)) you aren't alone in your pain and suffering. More time to gather the full force of your tsunami of feelings - don't hold back when 4pm rolls around!

The mongrel!

He has done this on purpose, to punish me. Who does he think he is? He didnt have to go shopping. Someone else could have done that for him. He knew this would make me feel angry towards him. I threw him over into the gorge again.

I cant tell him how I feel at 4pm though. What if he wont want to talk to me then? He will think I am stupid and selfish, and make me see reason. I dont want that. I just want to feel pissed off.

What if he doesn't understand how I feel? Will he be offended, and cancel Saturdays appt?

I am not brave enough to ring him at 4pm in case I get too angry with him. Settle, and try and reason it all out. I cant though, because I am confused by it all. I dont understand what is happening.

It's all too much to bare. What am I feeling? What will I do? I want to run away again.

Now I have a headache.

While I feel this way, it seems some unforeseen disaster may happen. I might lose control and go batty. The ground could open up and swallow me. I might have a prang when I go driving and never see another day. It's a horrible feeling. There is much angst. I don't feel safe at all.


Why must we always feel we are the only person going through this? That we are the only patient our T's have got?

Do you get your picture here?

When it comes to survival, you matter most.

What threatens our survival?

When a wild animal is threatened we put a cloth over its eyes. The animal believes the threat has disappeared.

A small child will close her eyes for the same reason.

An adult can stop a threat by denying it exists.

Almost Blu.

How do we FEEL when we are rejected?

THAT is the threat!


'While I feel this way, it seems some unforeseen disaster may happen.'

How many can write the word they dont want to feel?

10/10 Ten cents and a lollie to you Blu. You may not like an exam, but you come up with the right answers anyway.

Our anger threatens our survival.


As deprived bubbies we shut our eyes to rejection, and brain repressed the rage of no love.

As adults we shut off our anger by denying the way we feel, and suppress more anger.



Until brain has had enough.

Are you sure your swimming towards the castle Blu?
Who might it represent?

Lemme 'see.'

French coffee, no sugar?

thanks muff with a massive dollop of T adoration and love!

Knock yerself out with it GE.