Care to elaborate? I am not so sure I understand what it is you are trying to tell us....

S

I must be contagious!!!!

My hand pain has spread!!! Better watch out!!

kidding...

it's supposed to sound cryptic...
robin

Robin:

So evasive, are you wanting us to guess at what you are meaning?

S

is it figurative hands as in a body memory....

is there a literal part or presentation that tells a story that is unknown..

do you want to share?

i suppose it's literal and figurative. my hands were made to do something horrible as a kid... either I did it or the abuser would.... now my hands hold a lot of memories. there is the emotional ache of what i had to do, as well as, well... i bite my nails until they bleed, so it's also a literal ache. however, i'm trying to break that nail biting habit. and in the process, i suppose, take back my hands as a part of me that can be good. does this make sense?
robin

Robin:

Oh my goodness, I feel such a heaviness in my heart...I cannot even imagine how difficult your childhood must have been....I now understand at a very deep level what it is that you meant in an earlier post....

I send healing thoughts your way!!!!

S

Thanks. I'm doing ok with it at the moment. i did a page layout and made up a poem even!
Robin

Hi Robin-

I had a feeling that it was fig/lit in terms of self harm behavior but also understanding how often that is connected to trauma self soothing behavior....

it makes a lot of sense...

i know from experience about this issue and the difficulty of breaking the habit.....in fact, one of my 'songs' that has nothing to do with SI apparently but uses words that can be inturpreted as such is 'breaking the habit' by Linkin park....

have you ever tried habit reversal? I know this is one popular psychological theraputic approach to reversing these sorts of issues....

personally, I feel things like habit reversal are excellent but its important to learn to nurture, engage in healthy self soothing and calm the body.To me...habit reversal sounds too much like reversing the trick you taught an animal to do and now you dont like it anylonger without having regard to it;s history, why it came in the first place and how to feel healing beyond a behavioral change but more experential maybe? does this make sense?

Im still at conference.. just woke up..darn pain plus precarious net connection..lol... ttfn

Hi Robin:

I noticed a few others have posted poems that they have written....do you feel comfortable sharing yours....?

S

i don't think I'll post my poem at the moment...
robin

hope that you feel safe enough to share sometime. It can be rather awkward feeling i think but also helpful and healing in ways to have feedback from others

it's been about three weeks since i've quit biting my nails. now they are starting to drive me nutso! because i can feel them... another week or so and i plan to go get a manicure, just hope i can last that long.
robin

sounds like the manicure will be a nice rewaed for preventing nail biting. That's a tough one....

Good fortune

it's been almost 4 weks now! and it'snot as hard as i thought it would be... I feel like I'm 'taking back' my hands... doesn't that sound dorkey?
robin