Thank you Draggers for your honesty, I really needed to hear it. I am afraid that by going it may change how I feel about her for the worse, because as you say, it might not be as nurturing like when you were a client. It sounds the dynamics do change and I think it is good to be aware of it. I too, know that she will be carried with me. It is bittersweet isn't it? to know how great it felt but now it has changed. I think I just have to be aware of my expectations, so then, I may not be disappointed, but as most here know, we can be as prepared as we would like but still be disappointed.
I'm glad to know that seeing old clients is a good thing for therapist.
Pippi, that's great that you were able to catch-up regularly after leaving. It sounds like he went out his way to keep in contact with you even if it was within the confines of your psychiatrist's waiting room. It is amazing to hear stories of how some therapist care enough to allow past clients to catch-up and the extent to which your school psychologist went. Good luck and I hope you're able to catch-up with him again soon.