Hi there
I am getting all the help that I need.
People have been telling me that just think of this experience as dealt with Fucked up.
I am not sure if it's because I idealized him too much, I strongly believe that he could have done more than he did with me.
He was definitely sound boarding a lot with me.
I think he really enjoyed how I as reacting, what I would say or do...I was very interesting subject for him. Sometimes I wonder what if he was already professional counsellor and I was paying a lot of money per hour. I think that would have been different. both me and him could have dealt with my sessions more professionally. Not like hanging out with your close friend...
I don't ask my self WHY too much anymore because
there is no Why, shit happened, I got hurt, humiliated and people are telling me to get some help because of this crazy counsellor.
What about HIM?
he is supposed to just walk away?
I'd like to say that counsellor or Therapist
are very powerful profession.
I was depending my LIFE with this person.
I believed him too much and told him too much
and he used everything against me.
legal side of things that he's done???
I didn't find any feed back about this guy on-line but I found something that contains what he does. He has this web site dealing with youth.
I made my account there. My big mistake was, I used my ordinary passwords. and He came to my e-mail account, blog, MSN account and messed up with my head. I found crucial evidence with one account. which had his IP address.
This is definitely invasion of privacy and he has been doing cyber bullying.
I am getting all the help I need. My family and friends are very supportive, my doctors have been telling me just move on.
It's always victims who have to walk away from
abuser...
and that abuser was my counsellor.
I don't know why he would give me web site address like this and pretend like someone, using my private, personal, painful stories...
Yes, all I have to do is stop coming here and not read anything. and anyone could say. that I am paranoid and distorted, just like that director from the centre.
I am feeling really sick. not just emotionally
I've been trying to move on. I've been trying my best. Now I am physically sick.
every time I breath, some kind of fume is coming out. and It's so painful.
It's so painful that all I can think of is ending my life. I really want to get away from all the pains. all the pains that I went through... this counsellor, I thought that he was the one who could really heal me...
anyways, now I started to mumble...
what's the point of any of these...
I know that I am going to go through this again.
just like any other pains that I went through
but I feel that I am getting weaker and weaker everyday...
I think this was his ultimate plan.
wanted to find out what I had to say...
in this cafe...
I hope he is satisfied with all his work.
My super hero. Who controls my life..