Hey! Ouchies Some of us are still around (and are a lively kindly bunch! don't forget!!) the echo isn't too loud people will come back. This board is full of survivors and the storms always clear I promise.

I've been here.

I'm scared and sad and overwhelmed with non-forum life issues right now. I've still been reading, but find myself without words, without feeling I have much to offer anyone. I may be quiet right now, but I'm here. I can't seem to give up, which is good. My whole life has been a lesson on the learning the way of running. Right now, I am practicing the way of waiting and seeing where it takes me. Sorry for my cowardice.

Yeah and I guess I have not matured as much as I would like to have matured.
This post hurt me.

I will see you guys.

I've been here sharing my journey and offering support and insight where I can. I don't believe we should allow ourselves to be frightened away from something good and helpful in our lives. I've been here for many years and have seen a lot and I'm still here.

The collective voices of this Board are stronger and more resilient than any bad apples trying to stir up distrust and discontent.

I do hope to see everyone posting and sharing again soon.

TN

Hey turtle... how has this post hurt you? Can you tell us more?

Hugs
TN

Reading but not posting a ton. I have learned way too much on this forum to give it up. I am sorry some have forgotten that we are all here to help each other. Do we sometimes get pissed off? Yes we do, but we need to go through that and respect the intent of the forum. I for one am not going anywhere. I need all the help I can get.

It seems to me like the posting has been fairly constant with different people than usual starting threads - which is awesome. New voices being heard and some older voices from people who never started threads are starting threads. Some good stuff is coming out of this. There is always a silver lining.

I'm not feeling angry, really at all, but mostly, more than any other feeling, I'm terrified of hurting or causing conflict with people accidentally, people I care about and am trying to help.

I guess I'm just feeling kind of toxic right now and it's hard for me to be around people, even virtually, when I get in that place.

I'm sorry I feel I just added to the pain on the forum. I understand that CD has some steady friends here that are missing. I am (or seem to be) a fairly new member. I can cut some slack here.

in RL as Monte says I am feeling uber sensitive right now. Doing a lot of hard work in therapy and struggling hard to make ends meet. So I don't mean to take it out on anyone here.

Okay with that I think I will call it a night.

Turtle, it is totally ok to post your feelings and issues as you have done and keep doing it. Raise whatever you need to and say what you need to what you want to. Sometimes there are quiet times and sometimes not - sometimes a few of us are having bad times and stay away, new people come and go - it is all over the place.

I actually haven't found the board to be any different or quiet to previously. I logged on yesterday - and you have to account for time differences - and no one posted for it seemed like half a day - as everyone at the top of the world was asleep!!! That is always hard for me to cope with. When i need to read things when I am going thru a rough patch and you are all sleepy heads.

Nice to hear from you Monte...

I have noticed I have changed my posting style - I used to create threads but I changed about 6 months ago and I don't know why. Too much exposure, posting anxiety, scared someone IRL will recognise me. I dont know.

What I do know is that I have had a 14 month period of hell and it will continue until the end of this year. I tend not to reach out when I am distressed so me coming to the forum every day, many times a day and all thru the night - is a lifeline for me.

I am glad you posted Turtle because we are all communicating and thinking about the issue
Somedays.

Some days I'm on Australian eastern time, you can PM me anytime, I completely get the whole "everyone else is asleep while I'm awake aargh" debacle xx

Not an old timer like some (hee hee), but still here!

I'm still about too but struggling at the moment.
My sense of humour has gone AWOL. Would like to
offer more support but not in a good place to
think straight right now so just lurking and
reading.

Present and accounted for ((((CD)))) - just my usual part-time poster self!

I'm still here, but I admit that I'm an uncertain poster at the best of times, and this latest rupture just seemed to affect so many people that I relate to and/or have great respect for.

Just feeling sad... but I get so much out of the conversations here, so I'm not going anywhere.

Outsider,

I agree. I feel disturbed by all that's happened. It's like, sure, we're all fine, less a few casualties. Yet one can have better conversations about therapy here than just about anywhere. . . I have grown and learned so much from this board and interactions with people I've met here. So I'll still be around.

((((still here too..sometimes i lurk when maybe not in a good place but other times i post when able to respond, help, reply. i too have learned much from here)))

I've been extra quiet recently but value this place and all the people who contribute in whatever way.
So, still here, still reading and still a great believer in the power of combined caring and respectfulness which keeps it going.

I am hear reading everyday, but not posting very much , as usual.

i'm not biased but i think we're an awesome group of people

(((turtle))) if anything was lost, i don't think i suffer any more than anybody here. i have been here longer than you, but time isn't necessarily the measuring cup of what makes up a "steady" friendship. i could write a book on how to avoid just that. please, give yourself more credit...i believe you deserve it more than i.

quote:

I don't believe we should allow ourselves to be frightened away from something good and helpful in our lives.

i believe alot of us need to take that to heart. thanks for that quote, (((TN)))

it's nice to see so many people voicing just where they happen to be coming from. s to everybody here.

p.s. (((pings))) (((morgs)))