Hi Hopeful,
From what you have written, I'd not read anything into her words in terms of her wanting to know how you feel. However written words are always harder to interpret than a real conversation. I might be completely off.

The Therapeutic relationship is certainly essential to make progress T involves opening up on a very deep level and trust is important. It is probably more important than a certain therapy style from what I have read (I am by far not an expert).

Maybe it is not as much of importance to tell her what you feel about her in particular but rather why you ramble and how you feel about sharing what you share (or not) with her and the difficulties you have with it. It will give both of you some insight of what is going on. Rambling often indicates that there is little processing of what is shared (but again, I am a complete amateur in this area and might get it wrong).

Whatever it is you want or not want to discuss, try to remember that you are in control. You only share what you feel comfortable/safe enough to share with your T.

Hi JenDark,
I think you are right...I am totally a person who is trying to read more into what people are actually saying...bad habit and not real useful for me.

I think I get it how important it is the therapeutic relationship is now since she said that and now exploring it more since that appt. and she has said she is "eclectic" that style really doesn't matter.

I just finished writing it out and I know what it is now and the thing I have been trying to resolve which is my attachment stuff...I feel I got it now because I have reenacted this onto T which I have done atleast once with one person or another in the different places I have lived. It feels like I have rambled for the last 13 months but I am brave now and will read what I wrote and yes I have not processed atleast this main thing but will take care of it or atleast slow down and start exploring it and why I do what I do.

Thanks for all you've said...I am in control but continuously have let it go by the wayside while the rambling has taken over.

Your response was affirming to read after discussion with T last time and after writing it out before reading your response.

Thanks so much,
Hopeful