Great work, brave one!

I brought it up in T but that's as far as it got. I think I talked about it more here on the o. f. Scary work. Can understand the feeling of wanting to die. Cudos to you for working thru an extremely difficult subject.

(((Cat)))(((mudd)))

Thanks for the comments. To be clear, I'm not exactly having erotic transference per se. I'm not aware of any desire to actually have sex with my T. I seem to be experiencing infant-level maternal transference, which is confusing in that it can feel intense, sensual, and merging, similarly to falling in love. That in itself was hard enough to broach, so it gives me respect for people who manage to talk about openly sexual stuff...

Yes not an easy task. I definitely k we the pattern of my T's carpet considering I wanted to dive under it