Well, in follow up to my last post regarding feeling spoiled or taken care of...I had my session today(after a two week break because my T went to a conference). During the two-week hiatus prior to the session I had not contacted my T at all...highly unusual for me 'cause I either email or call her almost every other day! The reason I had not contacted her was in response to a comment she had made during our last conversation; which was, "have you processed this(feelings) with anyone else?" I took this to mean that she was growing tired of me contacting her and was wanting me to talk with someone else about my problems. so...I got angry...and...I withdrew and hence the non contact for two weeks. Well...now to today's session....during our session she was clearly upset at my withdrawing...she was honest and said that it hurts...it hurts when someone you connect with starts to withhold from you...and...she said that she felt(and rightly so...unfortunately) that I was punishing her for her comment.....and I feel terrible...she is so right...I was trying to punish her...all out of not trusting her caring for me and assuming that she no longer wanted to show her care by allowing me to talk with her on a regular basis. I feel guilty for this lack of trust on my part...I mean the woman time and again has expressed, demonstrated so much attunement and love how could I not trust her? I'm so very sad that my mistrust runs so very deep!...do any of you ever feel such a mistrust or fear of trusting...even your T's? Do you ever feel guilt over it? Have you ever out and out punished your T's because of it? If so...how did the relationship get repaired? I would appreciate any feedback....thank You for reading this(even though I don't post much..) Sincerely, MLC