And I want my therapist so much.
I feel so fragile and small and alone and I cannot even think straight.
This is the me that got most hidden in my life: (I was left in a basin with a tap on that turned to scalding after a minute or so, but my carer had walked away to another part of the building and left me there for - well we don't know how long, - but it was a neighbour who found me much later as the carer ran off when she saw what had happened. I was six months old. :cry: I had to be in hospital for a long time and have many skin grafts until I was four years old.)
so it is this hurting that is really strong at the moment (bawling)
and I want my therapist so much, SO much, SO MUCH
and if I don't get time with her I fear I shall have an even bigger hissy fit than I had on Friday (bawling)
which I admitted that I was exaggerating the extent of my upset on Friday cos my little me wanted her ATTENTION
DOH
but if left on my own for too long I feel so scared and so little
how on earth do I heal this?
I need her to hear this and know this and help me with this,
I WISH i knew the theory of what you do when you get an 49 yr old adult who has the feelings of a six month old traumatised baby.
"HOLD ME< don't leave me for long periods of time"
I want that heard.
IS that so wrong? Any ideas? Anyone been through this?
Like a phone call every second day or email in between?
