I don't usually post about my good days, just my really bad ones. Why? Maybe I think I will jinx myself. Or maybe I think if I admit I had a good day that it somehow means I can't have a bad day in the future. But today I say BS to that kind of thinking. I want to allow myself to claim this good day as mine and not worry about what may come tomorrow.

For my session today my T treated me to breakfast. It is certainly not a typical event, but she did it to celebrate my birthday last week, which she had forgotten. It was somewhat uncomfortable to eat in front of T because she is SO thin (and I am not anymore). Also, she has all these dietary restrictions she places on herself, like not eating carbs because supposedly she's trying to prevent herself from dying from a heart attack like her mother did. Well, I don't really care about heart attacks right now, so I'm ok with eating things with flour in them! But at any rate, it was still pleasant to be with her in a public place and talk about normal things like which movies are playing in the theaters that are worth seeing.

Lately I have been having a hard time dealing on weekends, and I sent T some crazy messages over the past several days while I was trying to cope without her. But even though I felt chagrined this morning at what I had texted her, T was ready to greet me with a smile anyway. Sometimes I am so amazed that she hasn't terminated me for my wild mood swings. I do try hard sometimes to push her to do just that, but she refuses to take the bait. And that is comforting.

I guess I don't really need any support this time. I just wanted to share.