That's what I can't determine though. Is it her or me?
Let me go even further; In July 2007 I was hospitlaized for acute gall bladder attack, I was in and out of the hosp all weekend until they finally admitted me early Monday morning. My husband was out of town and trying to get a flight back home and they wanted to do surgey on me right away, but I kept putting it off hoping I'd be ok (as I had been many other times) Then they decided to run a nuclear test to see how large the stones were and if they would be able to drop back out of the duct. The test showed I had 2-2" stones stuck in my duct and they weren't going anywhere and I was getting sicker by the minute. They agreed to put off surgery until my husband was able to be there Wednesday night. Meanwhile I called my T to tell her I was not going to make our appointment and she came to the hospital to see me and she gave me a long healing hug before she left. Is this not warm enough for me? After all she had to re-arrange her appointments with other clients and drive a half hour each way to to see me.
Then there is the recording she made for me before she left on vacation for three weeks this October. When I listen to it I hear the love and warmth generously resonating from her.
And of course the time she looked me in the eye and promised "she would never leave me. That would never happen." I felt the warmth then and vowed I'd never question it again.
So what happens in between? I should know better, but I just can't get it. Is there something wrong with me?