The last couple of weeks have been pretty good except that my T and I have been discussing how I can talk about my CSA. Near the beginning of therapy I gave my T an outline of my childhood (he asked questions and I answered). About a month ago my T suggested that we could talk about it further. That triggered quite a breakdown for me and resulted in stirring up a lot of my issues about whether I could trust my T and how worried I was about his judgement of me.
We've talked through a lot and I've spent the last 2 sessions talking about all the reasons that I am having trouble talking about something that I already told him. Next week I scheduled 2 sessions because sometimes I find it easier if I see him more often than once a week. Of course that has just resulted in more anxiety. I'm having trouble sleeping and some terrible nightmares.
If anyone has any advice on how to talk to my T please offer it.