the lights the laugher, music, food, friends, hugs, kisses, fireworks.
I'm going to be alone again this year, alone that is with H in bed by 8, no interest in being with me or celebrating. I'm worried I might Self injure. The last two years I have had PTSD or anxiety attacks, sitting alone in the dark....feeling sooooooo lonely.
I'm trying to find a safe place to fall tonight.
I dont want this to happen to me again. T is on vacation out of the country. I'm worried I wont make it through without resorting to being self destructive. I hate this feeling.