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New years is something I so look forward to,
the lights the laugher, music, food, friends, hugs, kisses, fireworks.

I'm going to be alone again this year, alone that is with H in bed by 8, no interest in being with me or celebrating. I'm worried I might Self injure. The last two years I have had PTSD or anxiety attacks, sitting alone in the dark....feeling sooooooo lonely.

I'm trying to find a safe place to fall tonight.
I dont want this to happen to me again. T is on vacation out of the country. I'm worried I wont make it through without resorting to being self destructive. I hate this feeling.
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Hi Lizzy, my hubs is the same way. He's so BORING! The past 4 years I have just been going in another room and watching some movies (Back to the Future trilogy). My T didn't tell me he was taking the rest of the week off after I saw him so I had written him twice and he left me hanging with no reply (which I just HATE) before I found out he wasn't even in the office, great. Smiler ~D.
I know how lonely it can feel on holidays, even when you have someone "around". Can you get out of the house and maybe go to see a movie? Or do you have any friends going out for NYE tonight? Perhaps you can meet up with them around midnight, even if you don't feel up to going out the whole night.

and then of course, there is always us! I will be around.
Hi lizzygirl
FWIW I've just come through another NYE alone and survived!!
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with H in bed by 8
Wow, at least he's not under your feet so you can do what you like really - contact someone, go to a movie/watch a movie - draw up that list draggers mentioned and as JD and everyone has said - we're all here Big Grin
Be gentle with yourself
Hugs
Morgs
Thanks for all your responses...just reading them this morning, New Year's Day.
After my Husband ranted about how much he hated New years eve, and how people who celebrate are imbeciles (guess I'm included) he went to bed.
I went to bed too. Safety place for me to be is asleep. I have no friends, no one to go out with or talk to as he keeps me isolated. So I just woke from 12 hours of sleep, therefore I didn't crash and burn last night. Perhaps I made a good decision than to stay up and get depressed. Yes, one of the worst things is feeling alone when you are with you own husband. I should be used to it after living with an alcoholic for 30 years.

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