I HATE THERAPY!!!!!!!

I have been seeing my T for 5 months.

I go and leave half of the time feeling like I wasted her day. She says assures me I'm not. She tells me I am emotionally shut down and I assure her I am fine. She tells me it's ok to cry and I tell her I don't need to. She tells me I've had a lot of trauma and I only see normal. She says I can trust her and I say it's not happening. But I have to go because I'm goin for my family.

So what do you do when all at once the you realize what she has been saying is reality and you've been lying to yourself?

I am waving the white flag and giving in. The pain is too much by myself. I'm so glad T didn't give up on me.

But I would like to have a conversation with the one who invented therapy because this s**t sucks! Then, I would like to punch them in the face for making me feel the pain of the truth