To add insult to injury, my anxiousness about group kept me up all night (literally all night) on Sunday, and my low-grade cold that had stuck around for a week flared up, so now I sound like I have a clothes pin on my nose. That on top of presentations, exams, work orientation, and choir trips and concerts...I have no words for the turmoil I feel.
I mustered up enough courage to email my individual T to ask for a referral to an off-campus therapist, but that was two weeks ago. I have yet to hear back from her, and it's pretty much eating me up. Even though my email was only two lines, I had so, so much trouble hitting the send button. I rarely ask anyone for anything, let alone her, so the more time that goes on, the more I'm having to keep telling myself that it wasn't a mistake to ask or to expect that she would help me out. She knows that I have a ton of trouble asking for help (or anything for that matter), so I'm so disheartened that I haven't heard anything yet.
I'm trying to decide how much more time I should wait before I try to seek out a T on my own (without the aid of a referral). I am so hesitant, though, because I don't know where to start. I don't know if I have the emotional and mental energy to keep trying out therapists until I find one that I like.