Yaku,
You bring up some good points about Ts needing to be cautious about what they say because of how it may be twisted or misinterpreted. I suppose even if she did feel love for me, she would have to be careful about expressing it.
Faithless,
I think even without T saying "i love you", i do feel uncomfortable bringing up certain topics because I am so afraid of disappointing her. I can only imagine how it might be intensified if she said she loved me. I'd be so afraid of losing her love.
I do think she brought it up as a core issue thing. What preceeded her bringing it up was her asking me what my biggest fear regarding my mother is and I said, "That she will die before I am able to get her to love me" and T sort of gasped and although I couldn't see her (we do phone therapy), I felt as though I heard a little bit of choking up in her voice and she said, "Wow, that is a very powerful statement. it knocked the wind out of me". and then she went on to say that I am loveable, etc.
She also said that it is very important to her that I know that she will never leave me, that no matter how much I try to push her away, she is always going to be right there for me. (I had fired her earlier in the week).
So I think she was trying to show me that I am capable of being cared about unconditionally, but being cared about and being loved are two different things in my mind. Oh how I long to hear that she loves me.
L2F,
You are right...you can pay someone to listen, but you cannot pay them to like or love you. I do believe that T1 genuinely likes me as a person. I know that she finds me funny and I do believe that she enjoys working with me...and that is something that no amount of money can create. But I do wish I didn't have to pay her to be a part of my life.