This information came to light for me last night while I was googling my P as I do occassionally. Not too often. Usually there are not any new hits that i haven't seen before but last night i came across 2 things that put me into a panic attack.
My P is in his late 60's. I have been seeing him for 10 years (yes that's right). I have such strong attachment feelings for him.
The articles that I read both referred to him retiring soon. Both were posted by him, trying to sell some expensive property because he is downsizing due to upcoming retirement.
I have thought about the fact that at some point he would be retiring but have managed to push it to the back of my mind because I just can't bear to think about that happening.
But now it is officially out there and I am panicked. I have to ask him when he is planning this horrible event because I am terribly stressed not knowing how soon it will happen. But I have never in ten years brought up the fact that i google him, even though he is a smart man and probably knows that i have done it. How do I ask him about it. I just don't want to talk about the internet searches at this point. He already knnows and we have discussed how deep my attachment is to him and he and I work through things as them come up. He always assures me he is not going to abandon me, but what will happen now. I have not been able to quit thinking about this since i found out. I have my next appt with him in 3 days and don't know how to approach this. I'm a mess.
HELP!!