It will be ok, JD. After you calm down a bit, you will be able to tell your T waht happened and why, and she will take you back if you need her too, which I get the sense you do. Don't worry, JD. It will be ok. Try to breathe and rest and just, slow down. You are safe, and your T cares, and she understands what happens with stuff like this. Once you are a bit calmer and less paniced, you may find yourself able to call and explain what happened. For now, don't worry. Trust me, your T isn't going to ditch you unless you really stick to your guns and refuse out of hand to go back to her. It will be ok...really.

hugs,

BB

(((Jane))) I'm sure your T will want to talk to you about this more. I'm also sure she will respect any decision you want to make, but she will be sure to give you the time to express more of what you're feeling. You didn't do anything that is final, you haven't lost your T, and I'm sure she'll realize that it was everything that's been going on for you recently that caused this reaction. ((((((hugs)))))) Let us know when she calls back.

JD,

I am sorry. Please do call your T and ask if you can take it back, if that is what you want to do. I think our Ts are used to this sort of thing.

Also,I just want to say that our Ts work for us, so really, we fire them. Sure, they can terminate our therapy and opt not to work for us anymore, but I think we often forget that they are working for us and earning their income through our business. We fire them.

thanks bb kasley and lg

i hope you all are right. i just need to calm down and try to call her again and hope and pray it's all ok in the end.

((((JD)))))

I agree, another voicemail when you are a bit less emotional will be a good thing, I bet your T will understand, and possibly, it isn't the first time it's happened to her!

((((JD)))))

thank you df, draggers and R2G

I did finally calm down, with the help of good amf bad coping skills, and called her and just simply begged her to please call me back. Trying to say anything else was just too hard.

she hasn't called back yet. granted, it's only been a few hours since I called her. the waiting is still very tough.

((((Jane))))

As Tom Petty said "waiting is the hardest part."

Hope you don't have to wait too much longer for her to call back.

well said R2G
no call back yet, rather unusual for her... trying to not read into it...

Jane, I am sorry. I know how scary that is. I hope your T has called you back by now, but if she hasn't, I'm sure it's not because of your message. I once texted my T that I felt like I had to quit (as in, felt pressured) and he thought I was asking to quit and asked about it in our session and we clarified that's not what I meant and things were completely normal after that. So, I think even if you had said, "I'm quitting," which you didn't, your T would understand. I constantly express feeling like I'm too much for my T and thinking he should just give up on me. I think Ts must get that kind of message from clients a lot. A T won't make you stay if you want to go, but if there is even a hint of ambivalence, a good T is not going to send you on your way without working that through and figuring out what is going on, what you really want. (((((Jane))))) It will be OK!

((((Jane)))) hope you have heard back from your T by now. Let us know how you are doing, k?