I am trying so hard not to buy some ganja right now. I don't really have anywhere to turn to get support. And to be honest with you it would feel so damn good right now. If this is inappropriate please let me know

I am trying to think of the pros and cons.

Pros of not buying ganja - I would save money, I would be able to spend the money on needed things or hobbies, I would not risk the happy mood I am in right now, I can find out that I can manage without it. I can tell T that I resisted it (even though she is an entirely new T)

Cons of not buying it - I won't have that fantastic escape, I won't be able to hook up with some friends who are looking to smoke with me right now. The weekend will seem longer because I will be more aware of the time passing.

This is so hard