Hi Forlorn,

I very much agree with what DF said. I totally understand why you're worried about it, but I don't think that's it. I've had really good relationships with my pharmacists over the year (one saved me from a really bad reaction if not death when my dentist proscribed an antibiotic I am seriously allergic to). And as much as you feel like you're on so many medications, you have no idea how many of the people he dispenses meds to are on the same kind of drugs. He also probably appreciates that you DO take the drugs so that you are more capable and healthier. Not to mention Forlorn, you're a lovely person so I don't think it's really difficult to understand why someone would be nice to you.

AG

I know that going to the pharmacist who has privy to such personal info can be scary...you are in a position of vulnerability. I suspect that pharmacists receive some degree of sensitivity training given the highly personal nature of their work.

I also suspect that there is a degree of natural genuineness to your pharmacists friendliness that probably has very little to do with him feeling sorry for you, but is more related to his personality type of being a friendly person.

I am also certain that you are not the only person coming in there for mood stabilizers. They see this on a daily basis.

DF - Thanks for empathizing with me. I hate being on the meds or at least the feeling that I'll HAVE to be on them for who knows how long. Before, I was taking prozac and adamantly told my pdoc I was going off with or without her help.(she helped begrudgingly) Several months passed and I was doing ok. then the storm hit and I no longer had a pdoc at the time. I felt so desperate to get it again. I called doctor after doctor trying to get an appt, and because I apparently live in a city full of people needing pdocs, every one of them were booked up for months and months. But I needed to be back on it asap. Finally, I lucked out and found the pdoc I'm with now. I don't know if or when I'll ever go off any of them now, but I'll definitely keep intermittent appointments with pdoc just in case...

AG - Awwww thank you for the compliment. I do appreciate his kindness and it's easier to discuss my meds and possible reactions when I feel comfortable with him.

LG - I tend to have paranoia issues. I'm sure that's not helping things. Another thing I worry about too is if he suddenly is having a bad day and isn't nice. I suffer from what-if syndrome too. I know I should just appreciate things like this, but for some reason that seems so hard to do.

((forlorn))
i know the feeling of worrying about what other people think and it having such a big impact on your life and i'm sorry you have this to worry about on top of everything else.
hope you're doing ok.
puppet