I believe all bubbies are capable of love. That it is an instinct, and triggered by love. Therefore, if love is not received baby will not be able to give it. That the effects of no love can result in failure to thrive, and repressed rage.

IN MY CASE, my mother was a sociopath incapable of giving love resulting in me not being able to give or receive it.

My therapy has been an attempt to vent the resulting rage from no love in hopes that it will be eventually triggered. Thus, my emotional freedom.

To put it simply: When one has been hit by a sledge hammer, how can anyone feel anything but pain? Such is the pain of no love.


“Well anything thats interesting in a film, or in a character (all your passion, your sex, your anger, your rage, all that) comes from that part of you that you want to hide and push away, and you want to deny all those things most. So if you can sort of visualize a version of your shadow. And if you sort of invite him or her to the party. And if you can really understand that this is where you're going to let that shadow come out (this is where its home) Its really just understanding that its your job to get vulnerable.

And most people who have the exact opposite; most people go through life and they try all their time not to feel all those dark things. We have to go feel them, but its an opportunity too. I think to think of it that way, that just gets you into flow and that unclocks your subconscious, so you get out of your head and into your heart. Thats what I do, I just try to remember that the part of you thats going to do a good job is the part of you you want to most deny.”
― John Cusack

“At the pit's bottom is no anger.”

― Ursula K. Le Guin



“I want to commit the murder I was imprisoned for.”
― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

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