Well the good thing about here is that it's safe as a internet forum can be. Shrinklady, me and others accept you and take time to breathe a little. That always helps.
You didnt cause any trouble annd I know its hard but sometimes it helps to tell those mean messages in your head that the abuse isn't happening now and those people are wrong.
Lots of issues to deal with at 14 but you're doing great
It was great talking with you too on IM.
BW