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Just last week I finally started submitting job applications after avoiding it for a year and a half.

Tonight I was supposed to have an online "audition" for teaching standardized test prep. I prepared and prepared for it, was nervous but OK going in, then in spite of testing everything before hand, ran into some stupid technical glitch. As a result, they told me I would have to reschedule and kicked me out of the room (it was a group audition thing.)

So really, this is just a stupid frustrating setback, but I cried over it!! This is an example of why looking for a job is way more painful for me than it actually should be. It felt like some part or parts of me were taking it as an actual rejection and evidence that I'm a worthless human who will always be shunned or something. Plus I was reliving awful memories of looking for a job during the worst part of the recession and how alone I felt, and how every time I talked on the phone to my dad, he would tell me to find a job and I would actually feel suicidal.

Anyway, just needed to vent about that. I guess this is where I land on my ass, crawl back to therapy, work it out and then get up and try again...
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(((BLT))) I'm so sorry about your first interview having to be rescheduled, especially after you prepared so much for it. I know it can be so hard not to lose heart. Potential rejection is so triggering to ke, I've only really ever tried for jobs I'm way overqualified for. Even then, last year I was rejected by my old job where the supervisors loved me and begged me for over a year to come back. It's hard. Frowner But, I know the right opportunity will come along, whether it's this one or the next, because you are so smart and have many wonderful things to offer!
(((BLT)))

I've been job searching too and it can really be disheartening - especially when you prepare so much like you did. FWIW, I went for one of those standarized prep positions too but hadn't practiced and couldn't do the test as fast as I needed to. It felt like they were all laughing at me. (I think they were like what the heck is she doing here?)

Just keep trying and look for something that might suit your personality and interests so that you will be more comfortable. If you like books, what about applying for a job at a bookstore? That type of stuff.

Good luck. Hang in there!!
Like others have said a job search is difficult. It has been said only second to grieving over a death. Four years ago after 30 years on the job a judgement error caused my life to almost end and left me crippled. Today i wish i could find a job, any job would do. But in my condition employers are hesitant to even give me a shot. I guess what i'm trying to say is don't give up and look at each day your living as a gift. What keeps me going is i doubt on our last day on earth we wish to worked more.

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