I am a journaler, as I often find comfort in writing out what is going on in my head, my life, and lately, my therapy. However, I am having a harder and harder time weeding through things lately, and am finding myself staring at my journal, full of intensity, and not able to put anything into words.
For example, yesterday's session was really rough, but it didn't hit me until I was on my way home. When I got home I was so overwhelmed with tears that I still haven't been able to process my session yesterday. It almost feels like a writer's block, but the opposite - there is so much to say and to express that everything is fighting to get out all at once and I can't get anything out instead. It is very frustrating, as all I am doing is staring at my journal and crying, and I'm really not used to these intense emotions.
The thread about naming emotions was really interesting to read, and I think I get that, but what I'm experiencing seems to be different? I don't know... I do know that the more I hold onto in my head, the more discombobulated I feel, which has been why journaling after sessions has been so powerful. But right now, I have so much of the crap from yesterday still in my head and I can't get it out. Argh. Anyone else experience this? How'd you move through it?
(Yes, I will be talking with my T about it on Thursday, but if this stays in my brain until then, I'm likely to explode upon entry to her office, which would be rather messy and unproductive)
