Welcome, Emma! I'm glad you took the step to introduce yourself and share some of your story. I know it can be really scary but I think you will find that you're among friends. It sounds like it's hard for you to make connections with others. I have that problem too. But the good thing is now that you've taken the first step here, you can keep practicing with us by continuing to post and maybe, eventually, it will help build the courage to make connections with people around you.
SG