thanks gals!! good to hear from you.

it just amazes me how underrated pa is. back when i was seeing the minister and spacing out asking him what was real...is this real? am i real?? and driving (dissociating) hours without knowing where i was...he thought 'supportive therapy' and his cbt stuff was what i needed. my p at the time thought i needed pa, i ran this by minister guy who thought that was nuts...he was convinced i was 'ok'...til i gave him a self test on axis one and two stuff (through schematherapy site, good site, btw) and i was clearly axis 2. he was flipping out, and arguing with my answers on the test, saying i really didn't feel that way, i was astounded, after nine months of flipping out on his couch that he didn't GET it...just coz i LOOK sane at the grocery store or whereever, damn!! i've had 49 years of faking sanity!! i'm pretty good at it!! you relate????? anyway, pa ROCKS!

now, i do think, that rapport between the t and client is key and vital, but these people, some of them, just don't know what they don't know. and, without being thoroughly analyzed themselves, are PRIME for doing what 'bitch from hell' did, and kick me out and lie to me when i hurt her narcissism.

so, beyond the theories of pa, just the TRAINING, and the years of experience one endures to become an analyst (their being analyzed themselves) speaks so highly of this stuff. i do favor the older generation of psychiatrists. just a bias. but, hands DOWN, his experience, for someone with my depth of stuff was vital. he is unshakable. very human. not cold, or 'analytical'...so to speak. dynamic. very human. just a classic analyst...i can see his neuroses at times, as we all have them. he is a bit obsessive. i gleen his wife is a bit hysteric. hey, and for me. this stuff was built for hysterics!! so, i am in the right place. and i don't think he fit the person into the diagnosis. we have worked through that, in my overly suspicious mind.

it is fascinating. and becoming unwound is so damned liberating...oh!! i feel like dancing topless in the street!! (i won't, don't worry!)

too, just letting the thoughts come out, rather than all the stupid repression to 'being a good girl'...BUNK~~i just FEEL like dancing topless, i am NOT doing it. fantasy versus reality! what a concept~

anyway.

good to be back,

thanks for saying hi, uv and df...you two were always so kind to me, and understood me so well!! xxoo!!

and the rest of you, xxoo, you know who you are!! i love you, too!! jill

hey drags, thanks!! i think about you all too. i probably will just pop in from time to time. i do have an addictive personality that can get obsessive, and i need to stay one step ahead of it at times. so, i sometimes come here and check things out but just lurk. but know i can't get too involved, or then i become saturated and obsessed, and the hurt feelings and worrying and 'borrowed trouble' can start. so, i have to say no, but, YOU, my fine friend on the other side of the pond are, amoung others, permanently etched in my heart, and i don't drop that affection. but, it is in my own best interests that i stay focused on my family, and stuff. you are sweet to ask.

ewwww, this obsessive bone is still not cured, gotta bring that up next time, as i FEEL the itch!!!

ok, out for now!! xxoo, jill

don't you love how i leave and keep coming back. oh, i never could say no!

i am still not cured!!nor probably ever will be. i will pay for therapy with my LAST dying dollar!!

Hey Jill... it's always great to hear from you and hear how you are doing. Happy to hear that you are still with your dr. pa and that things are going well. He sounds like one of the good ones and it sounds like you are doing a lot of good work with him. I think you bring up a very good point... it's REALLY important that Ts/Ps have done their own analysis before they start tinkering with other people. They need to take care of their own stuff or at least be aware of it and how/when it gets triggered so they can learn to keep it out of the room with the patient.

Check in with us anytime jill and keep us updated on how you are doing. It's always nice to hear from you.

Regards,
TN

JILL!!!!!!!!!! Great to hear from you, I often wonder how you are doing and am so pleased to hear that Dr PA is the bee’s knees You went through a lot of shit to find the right T and it is SO good to hear about how you’re feeling now – yay for you.

Lol I get what you mean about coming back here and suddenly feeling the addictiveness of it all, but can I say that it would be great to hear how your therapy is going – we could do with some positive accounts of therapy sessions as well (all good for the learning too.) So if you do feel like starting the odd thread or two about how things have been going...

Anyway whether you stick around or not, just want to say thanks for updating and wish you all the best with everything.

((((( Jill )))))

LL

Hey Jill! It's great to hear from you, and I'm so glad that things with dr. pa are working out well. Thanks for updating us and know that you're welcome to pop in whenever you want to.

Jill, it is nice to hear from you- and that your therapy is helping instead of harming you. Wonderful news. Always a pleasure to hear from you girl!

Love,

BB

Lovely to see you again jill, good to hear things are going well.