TCMM - I am so sorry that you and your children witnessed that. I know how scary that is for a child to witness. (unfortunately) I am glad that you were able to leave and call your C. That is so big! Violence like that is not to be tolerated by anyone. Yahoo to you!

thanks for the support everyone, we did have a session tonight... a super extended one... and i have to say that i'm not doing well... i think i'm just so tired that I didn't feel heard, and that's a typical response for me in my husband's sessions, i think i'm going to hibernate for awhile... talk to you all in a few days

Ok, so i am back to get some honest feedback about this situation. Last night, the counselor concluded that a panic attack which is the result of my husband's PTSD is what caused his rage the other day. Her solution is that he needs to see the dr again and discuss his anti-anxiety meds again... which I took away and hid, because he was overdosing on these and then drinking on top of that. He has real trust issues with psychologists and psychiatrists etc... so... this makes me feel like the only person he trusts is our current couns. I trust her too, mostly, because I know that she has our best interest at heart... and she doubled up on our session last night which she most certainly did not have to do.

But here's my issue... he came home last night and slept on the couch, per my request, but what happens when a rage happens again? What happens if he doesn't make that dr appt... what happens if the dr doesn't get it? what happens if????? I'm just really upset by all of this, and I knwo that for him to heal, he needs my support, but I WAS traumatized by this event! I am not doing well... While I was away, my husband removed me from his Facebook friend list, which then put on facebook our marital status as seperated.... and the couns was upset with me for sharing about my hubby's DID with some supportive friends over the wkend without getting his permission first... The DID is a HUGE part of the puzzle as is the PTSD... Not sure where to go from here... I am waiting for the counselor to call me today, but my call block is on... I'm PISSED and she knows it too, thanks to our text convo this am! HELP????!!!!

What would you do?