We are experiencing so many different and difficult feelings lately about being adopted. We feel like we deserve to always be alone, always feeling like the odd one out. No matter how much people try to tell us otherwise, we don't believe it when they say they love and want the best for us. Why would they? We don't know who we are. We don't know our history. We don't know who any of our family is. We don't know who we look like. We don't know who we sound like. We don't know any of our origins. We feel extremely confused and lost and so very much alone. It doesn't take much to trigger panic attacks. It doesn't matter where we are or who we're with. We actually suffered one at the office last Friday and had to leave. Everything feels overwhelming and just trying to decide what to eat for lunch is exhausting. We feel like we deserve to feel this way. No happiness, no comforting, no joy...only to stay away from everyone because we're not worthy of anything more.

We're sorry.

TK