I've hated my job for a very long time, I make almost 50% below what I should be for the job and experience level I have. There are three reasons I've stayed at my current company for 8 years: the insurance company (though the coverage sucks), it's convenient to get to and the ability to work from home.
A company in my area and in a relatively convenient location for me to reach, with the same insurance company I have now would pay me almost 45% more than I'm making now AND the benefits would be better for the exact same job in a similar industry. No brainer, right?
Well...I'd lose my ability to work from home (permanently or for some time, I would need to find out about working a compressed schedule though the nature of the department I'd be in usually requires 5 day a week availability). This means I may need to make other arrangements with my Ts (if even possible, and truthfully it may not be - I love these woman and it makes me sick to think of leaving right now and starting work with a new T).
It's worth it... right? Or am I foregoing what may be amazing healing? Is money really more important than the relationship I've taken 2 years to barely form? Perhaps in forming it... the next one will be easier? I've let my therapy prevent me from doing a number of things but this... wow! There are a lot of jobs out there now that the economy has improved a bit this would be so valuable. This is quite of of the way of my Ts offices which would make going there after work a 1-2hr commitment.
Has anyone else limited what they do in order to honor their healing? Or at least taken a second thought? I finally have the energy and the desire to live enough that... I'm realizing this job is killing me faster than therapy is healing me. I just can tolerate how I make a pay check anymore especially knowing for every $100 I make it could be $150.
I'm not sure how I feel, I mean... obviously I may not get this job but I think even the act of applying for it has volumes to say. Just hoping I can talk this out from a few angles so I can sort out my feelings. I want to avoid telling my Ts I'm applying for now so I won't spend my sessions planning contingencies for a bridge that hasn't been built yet (I'd force it, not them because when I'm anxious I need to plan for every possible scenario or I'm a walking panic attack).
Edited to add: After research, they do allow working virtually so perhaps it can work out.