Hello Scattered, I actually wrote out a post to this thread last night but by the time I finished it a load of others had replied and said in a much better way most of the stuff I was trying to say so I didn’t post.
Edited to add: I’m sorry I can’t comment at all on the issue of memories being true or not, perhaps you could start a new thread about that, as lots of others on here have struggled with similar things?
What I want to chip in now about is this thing with your T actively trying to discourage you from being on the forum and giving you a dictate about not talking about therapy with anyone else. Which strikes me as a very controlling thing to do, especially as she isn’t giving you any kind of reasonable explanation as to her reasons for telling you to do that so you can decide for yourself whether it’s a good idea or not.
I’d read of other people’s therapists telling them to keep away from therapy forums and thought how very dictatorial and controlling that was, so when I went to see a new therapist once I had this idle question at the back of my mind wondering whether she would lay out that kind of demand. I seriously did not expect her to because I think it’s totally beyond the limits of the therapeutic relationship for a T to try and dictate what a client can and can’t do in their own lives.
Well blow me down but we were only into about our third session (and I’d already told her I read and posted here) and she comes out with, it’s probably not a good idea your being on the forum. (I should have run then and there!) I didn’t even bother asking her why because I already knew it’s a knee jerk attitude that some therapists have to any sign that clients are getting information and support (and quite often can also be negatively influenced by, to be fair) about therapy from other people.
I can sometimes see that it might be beneficial to stay away from researching therapy stuff to any great extent, but I would expect ANY T to at least get to know their client first before laying down conditions like that. It’s very much a standard condition that some Ts adopt and apply wholesale to all their clients, regardless of whether it’s appropriate or not for specific clients. To me it spells incompetence and a rigidity of role and a lack of willingness to get to know ME as a person, instead I get pigeon-holed as being a ‘client’ and so I see it in your T as a major red flag.
Having said that, have you (or your T) noticed that since you started reading and posting here that it’s affected you badly or negatively in any way? Sometimes hearing about other people’s therapy can have a negative influence (it did for me for a while so I took a break, but of my own volition not because my T wanted me to). On the other hand getting to know first hand what therapy is and can be like is very empowering and helpful so it’s swings and roundabouts really.
Unfortunately the way you’ve described other things your T has said and done make me think that she’s not always acting in your best interests, even though she may think she is. Do you think you’ve benefited from therapy with her? You say that you really do like her and trust her so maybe these red flags that I and others here see in your relationship are all things that you could maybe try and discuss really openly and fully with her and get some of them resolved. If you’ve already got a good relationship established it would be worth working at it to get some more openness between you on just how badly you are being affected by some of the things she says and does.
Lol sorry this has become a mega post - I actually only meant to post about the forum issue but ended up trying to give a balanced view and it just went on and on. Basically, I want to say that if I were in your place, I’d head for the hills.
But of course it’s how you feel about it and whether you can continue to trust T with your therapy having these kinds of issues surfacing.
In any event, you’ve got all my support regardless
LL