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I just returned from a whirlwind of a vacation in Disneyworld; 5 adults, 5 kids, 5 theme parks, 5 long days. While we had many magical moments and lots of memory making; it was very frantic and anxiety-provoking. The past month and a half I've been having many flashbacks and have been trying to connect many dots. This vacation had many triggering moments and most days I felt like a complete outsider who did not belong with the group and wanting to cry.

One day, everyone was tired and feeling the lack of sleep and tension of so much running around. My two best friends, who are married, were mad at each other and the tension was seeping through to all of us. By late afternoon, the other couple and their two kids left to go do their own thing. My friends, my two nephews, my daughter and I spent a silent $160 lunch at Hard Rock Cafe and then all hell broke loose. The older nephew and dad went back in the park. His wife was pissed and grabbed the younger one and said she was taking a taxi. By now she was yelling at me and telling me my daughter and I could do whatever we want. We sat there stunned and I started crying. Then she tries to tell me she's not mad at me but it's all because the older nephew took a shower in the morning without asking. That's why she and hubby were fighting. That's not really the reason, but we were all exhausted. H and N show up while she's yelling and I'm crying and she starts yelling at N. He's shocked and H is telling him to not argue back, that she was being ridiculous, and this set her off more. We stormed off, no one speaking, and got back to the hotel. We all took naps.

So I know this is a silly story of adults being tired and stressed, but the part that still hurts is that it was just brushed aside. These are my closest friends, my chosen family. They are the only ones who know what I've been through and my journey through healing. I never got an apology or explanation for being yelled at and made to cry. Things calmed down, but there was an air of tension remaining and she pretty much ignored me the rest of the trip. She's usually always there for me with an ear for listening or a kind word. I guess I feel rejected and it hurts. This was supposed to be a once in a lifetime trip that was worth selling the camper and going into debt for in order to have this time together with the kids and I know we all came home feeling a bit let down. Maybe I'm projecting my feelings on others and maybe I'm exhausted from being up or 20 hours and traveling all day...but I needed to own that I feel hurt and sad and I don't like it. I think part of it is my fear might be coming true....my friends/family are turning away from me and I'm scared of feeling so alone.

Has anyone had a similar experience and how did you recover? Did it just get better once you caught up on rest or did you have to do processing around it?
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Hi Raven,
It sounds like it was really hard. Sounds like your friend who was yelling but was probably about her...she didn't try very hard to maintain control of her emotions and that kind of stuff always ruins it for others...been put in that situation mostly with FOO but occasionally with H when our kids were young...had had a nice time until the end of the night and H just ruined it for all of us with not controlling hisself and was directing it at our son who was 10 at the time and it was at the Magic Kingdom.

I hope for you that your friend was just exhausted and that she will realize and apologize to you and the others. I hope your fear does not materialize. I would think it was just exhaustion but can't know. I'm thinking to try to look at it like H did...it's hard I know when you don't know what the deal is but I would just give her time and space to come around since you say she has always been understanding. This coming from me who is impulsive...but I hope it all works out well in the end.



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(((Raven))) I'm sorry to hear about the meltdown in the kingdom (although I have to admit, the title of your thread made me smile - I like your sense of humor). Unfortunately, we have discovered over the years that our family does not vacation well, and so scenarios like the one you've described are embarrassingly all too common when we "vacation" (which is why I dread "vacations"). And I feel awful saying this, but it's me who has the problem, because I get very stressed out when there's no familiar routine. Combine that with a lack of sleep and lots of running around (and lots of people) and I turn into a raving b*tch. And now we are actually planning a trip to said Kingdom in January of 2013 (for the first and probably only time) and I am already planning to ask my doctor for strong tranquilizers to get me through, because like you said, it's a once-in-a-lifetime experience, where you're supposed to make good memories, and I already feel so much remorse over ruining our other vacations. And those were fairly local compared to this...ugh, I want a tranquilizer just thinking about it. Brick wall Times like this, I wish I could transmogrify myself and send my duplicate instead. I would gladly miss out on the Magic if it meant that my family could be sure of having a good time.

I'm very sorry that your friend never even acknowledged or apologized for taking out her frustrations on you. You definitely deserved an apology. Do you think you could tell your friend how hurt and sad you feel about how she treated you? My guess is she feels terrible about what she did. That doesn't excuse her not coming to you first, she really should be the one to step forward. But if she doesn't, I would hope that once you let her know how her blowup affected you, she would respond with an apology. And even if she doesn't respond well, that wouldn't be your fault, either, and you will have honored your own pain at what happened. I do not think what she did is your fault at all, and I do not think you are overreacting to what she did. I think you'd be doing both of you a favor by letting her know how it affected you, even if she doesn't initially take it well.

Good luck. Let us know how it goes.
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SG
(((Raven)))) You asked this question in the right place. Smiler

My husband and I are members of the Disney Vacation Club and complete Disney fanatics. We've been to Disney World more times than I am willing to admit in public and what happened to you is FAR from unusual.

It's a huge place, and the pace you keep while trying to see it all is exhausting. Not to mention that the level of stimulation (between the theming, the rides and the crowds) is off the charts. One of the common things that first time visitors do, ESPECIALLY if it's a "once in a lifetime" trip is try to cover too much ground. Everyone ends up utterly exhausted and depleted and then you experience the kind of meltdown you did.

The first piece of advice we give anyone going to Disney World is to not overdo it. Take a mid-afternoon break and take a day off in the middle to just chill because of this. We had to learn it the hard way.

Right after we bought the vacation club, we went down on a trip with my husband's whole family and all stayed together (!) in a three bedroom Grand Villa. My children were 2 1/2 and 6 months old. It was near the end of August and the temps were hovering slightly over 100 degrees and the only place my six month old was happy was in a snuggly on my chest. Whenever we speak of this vacation, which is infrequently, we refer to it as "the vacation from HELL." I think I melted down at least three times, the most spectacular one being me screaming, at the top of my lungs, in a crowded restaurant, in the Magic Kingdom, at my niece to leave my children alone while I was trying to get them to eat. I did NOT use good language. I was horrified and embarrassed (may I add that this outburst was not unprovoked... BUT I was out of line. My SIL's response when I apologized was "sometimes you have to talk to ----- like that." Eeker).

So all that was to reassure you that this wasn't a shift in the friendship or a deep change in your friend, this really does happen more than most people realize at Disney. Since my family has the luxury of going fairly often, we have learned to really slow down and do less, but enjoy it more. But the place, while being worth the money, is seriously expensive, so I understand people pushing there.

Once everyone has had a chance to recover from the vacation, if this is still bothering you, I would sit down with your friend and talk to her about what happened. My best guess, based on my experience, is that she is probably REALLY embarrassed at how she behaved and just doesn't know what to do. I think if you're this close to her, giving her a chance to talk about how she felt and in turn being able to express how you felt should clear the air. I really do NOT think this had anything to do with your behavior, just the dreaded Disney meltdown.

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Hey Raven

That does sound like a really miserable day Frowner I'm so sorry your friend didn't acknowledge what happened afterwards. I would find that very triggering too (the whole dynamic of blowing up about something that isn't the real issue and then pretending it never happened is a painful dynamic in my family). I can see why you're feeling hurt. Like the others who replied, I hope your friend will be open to talking it over. Do you feel comfortable approaching her to talk it over once you've all had some time to decompress?

I have had my own family Meltdown in the Magic Kingdom (I loved your subject title too!), which is kind of funny now, almost 20 years later, but at the time it was embarrassing and stressful. My mother, father, brother and I were on our 3rd or 4th consecutive at Disney Land and it was a really hot, busy day there. We were in a loooong line up that wove through tunnels, etc. and in one of the tunnels somebody passed gas. It was so crowded and hot in there and the smell was so bad... my 11 year old brother couldn't help but comment on how gross it was. It was pretty funny, and the people around us started laughing but my dad was horrified and totally lost it. He was yelling and said some horrible stuff to my brother. My mom tried to get my dad to stop,my brother started crying, and I tried to get ALL of them to stop because I was so embarrassed! We ended up pushing our way backwards in the line to get out of the tunnel and away from the whole situation. I can't remember what happened after that but I'm hoping we had the good sense to go have a nap and take a break from Disney Land Smiler It's good to know that theme park meltdowns are normal... these days a theme park sounds like just about my worst nightmare!

Anyways, Raven, I hope you and your friend are able to have a good talk soon. It sounds like she needs to know you have hurt feelings for your own peace of mind.



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Well...it does make me feel better to know that stressful family vacations can cause even the best if us to have meltdowns Smiler

I saw everyone again tonight and things were fine, but nothing specific brought up. When others asked how our vacation was, she replied that it was a comedy of errors. I could tell she was referring to the tension felt with her husband and me - she's the type who always has to be right and in control. I am in a place to let it go, though. The memories - good and chaotic - will be great to laugh about in the future!

I would go back again now that know the intensity of the entire Disney World complex. I would go to the places I enjoy and not rush all over Luke a crazy lunatic.

I'm more worried now that I've caught up on rest that my emotions are still extreme and all over the place. I almost start crying at everything and I'm taking things very personally. I'm trying to use positive self talk and encouraging self to just let it be and let the emotions cone.....but it sucks Frowner

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